It’s Just Justin

Bruised, Used, Abused

I tolerate your music, you hate mine, you put your cd’s on in my car and turn it up really loud.

I like to eat sensibly, you like to eat fast food, we eat fast food

I love going to see movies, you don’t, so I have not seen a movie since… On a date since…

You want it, you get it, especially with me. I just can’t do this much more. It has gotten to the point that you just assume I will drive, you assume I will pay for, you assume too much. But being the person I am, I go along with all of this. I pay for things I should’nt, I drive you places I should’nt.

You are never wrong, I am never right and my opinion seems to mean nothing. You pout when you want something or something does not go your way.

When was the last time you went out of your way to do something kind for me?

When I ask what you are doing, you forget to tell me 90% of what you are doing, I walk into something I am not prepared for and am expected to go along with it.

I am made to feel guilty whenever I need to leave your house to get sleep, take medicine, do work, etc.

You say you love me but never do anything to show it. You don’t even greet me anymore.

I just feel totally taken advantage of, I have once again let someone else get the best of me and I am left with the worst of me, tired, sad and alone.

There is another person inside of me just waiting to pounce. I did’nt back then and he is’nt right now, but you wait. Not once more, you have strucken out. If you truly feel for me how you weakly pronounce in moments more and more plagued by great distance, you will make this work.

You hate talking on the phone, thus we don’t talk on the phone. What happens when you are 60 miles away?

I want this to work, I really like you, otherwise I would not be upset enough to write this all out. In the beginning, nary a moment went by that you were’nt in my thoughts and for that I was ecstatic.

Well, this is one of those posts that you have to take rage, pain and depression into account. Hopefully things will work out. meanwhile, what?

Seth’s New Apartment

Seth got a new apartment today! Awesome!!! It is so nice and his new roommate is really neat.

First though, we went to the MAC Cosmetics Pro Store, what a place!

Now some pics of this new place!

He has a morgan bed, how rock is that?

He is in such a fabulous part of town, just four blocks from work (Union Square) which is the largest shopping distict west of New York City!

Even the porn places are classy!

While I was waiting for him to meet me back at the car I took some pics. He had to pay his deposit to secure the room so we stopped at a nearby ATM and I took out some money. He better invite me over! LoL. I cannot wait till we get to move him in and no longer have to worry about hurrying back to Santa Rosa after a club.

Goal, have my Nikon D70 series camera with some cool lenses by November.

Sleep time.

So Similar it Freaks me Out

Fred

Fred’s Santa Rosa clone

Does he not look exactly like Fred V. from Mizzou/Acacia? Holy cow…

Another Google Quote of the Day

A girl phoned me the other day and said “Come on over, there’s nobody home.” I went over. Nobody was home.

- Rodney Dangerfield

So yeah, the other day…

I have been talking with this girl Kayla on myspace for a few weeks and we have gotten to be pretty good online friends. She has just moved here just like me, we both work for Starbucks and we both enjoy many of the same things.

So completely stalkerish, I visited her at her Starbucks. I did not at first recognize her as she had gone from brown to blonde hair, but she looked absolutely great.

Today was a blast at school. I had piano class first. I think I am going to go into a more advanced class though, I totally already know everything that she is goign to teach. Next up was my vocal class which was equally blastful. I cannot wait to further improve my ability to sing! I really want to serenade someone in particular right now…

Work was swell, got out early, yay for Angelica for being awesome with closing tonight!

After closing I headed over to Seth’s to chit and chat, then tried to buy some champagne and my driver’s license was denied… sad! I am 21 damnit! haha

My grandfather and his handyman are visiting from Texas, to get some work done and all that. Tomorrow Seth and I head to San Francisco to look at a potential apartment for him and to go do a tiny bit of shopping.

Oh and I heard this song today on my iPod Shuffle while walking to class… Wow it is good. An honest song.

Julie Roberts - Wake Up Older

Good night all my peeps!

Google Quote of the Day

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–/ I took the one less traveled by, / And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

Breaking Knews

SO this is breif, more later when I am not running from place to place… ahhh!

At the SRJC computer lab, there was a lost and found for pictures… how crazy is that?

I got a raise, and it is retro-active, w00t!

Classes are totally messed up. I lost seven hours of classes yesterday, added three, yikes. Need to find four more hours or so.

My XM Radio is being weird. When ever it plays the song Cool from Gwen Stefani, the FM Modulator fails. At 10:10 the “ST” (which says whether the radio is in stereo and the quality of the reception) is completely gone, or flickering. After this song was over, The Killers had no trouble playing…

Right now I wake up at 6:00 and leave for Santa Rosa around 8am, I get home around 11:00 pm. Sleep is something I just don’t get much of these days… argh. I need to figure that stuff out.

My grandfather is coming up to the house today with one of his handymen. My house is not nearly as clean as I would like it to be but I just don’t live here enough to make the house a home.

Ahhhh! I need more sleep and I need some socks. It is cold out here! haha.

Really must go, howdy you all, the dear readers from Texas and beyond.

Ciao

-justin

Gay Meme

New York Ex sent me this meme to fill out

1. If we are single or in a monogamous relationship?
2. How long we have been with our partner/significant other/boy/girlfriend?
3. How we met?
4. What we like to do together?
5. If we are single, what life with our ideal spouse/partner would look like?

Answers

1. Monogamous
2. We have been dating for a few months now
3. Officially we me at Aroma Roasters (the coffee shop I frequent)
4. We like to watch movies, go clubbing/partying and talking
5. I’ll go for it… Like the one I lost…

Kennedy - Your Mama

I was reading New York Ex when I saw a link to Occasional Bitch which looked like an interesting blog.

She had this fabulous music video linked on one of her journal entries and I thought it really was a great music video. Pretty trippy! The song is not bad either hehe.

Click the image to play (as with all my videos of course hehe)

Back to School Days

James Blunt - Back to Bedlam - You are Beautiful

Argh, so much has happened. Good, bad and unpleasant.

The “other day” Seth and I were going to see Charlie and the Chocolate factory at 8:00. First he needed to go to his mom’s, do laundry and look online for an apartment in the city. We all had fun searching for an apartment, but come 7:45, his clothes were’nt done and he had’nt found a place. We decide to wait for the 9:30 showing… at 9:40 we leave his mother’s to head to his place. I really just wanted to go home at that point… I had to open the next day.

I did get an ok picture of the sunset on his mother’s front porch.

Pretty decent for a camera phone (which is where most of the pictures for now on will come from, till my new digital camera arrives…)

We went to Aroma Roasters instead of a movie for a bit.

I did not buy anything for myself but did buy Loren a drink. The place was pretty crowded, a few ol’ friends were there. Seth and Loren went outside to smoke but I was too cold to stay out there so I stayed inside to listen to the music and watch the people.

After all of that, I went to MIke’s. I just needed to vent about the day and night, needed someone to talk to. I hung out with Mike and Kevin for a bit, and of course had a great, relaxing time.

A few nights later was not that much different. Seth and I ended up at Aroma’s where I bumped into Clay. That immediately and obviously caused a little bit of ….. well something, with Seth. I could tell he was not happy with how excited I was to see Clay. We chatted for a short period before I moved back to Seth, did not want to make an awkward night even more so.

There was some fabulous live music.

I bought his cd (and got his autograph haha) and another group’s cd. Both are pretty darn good!

After Aroma’s, Seth and I headed to Blockbuster to get a movie, The Life Aquatic. That is where I realized that Geoff was still on my Blockbuster account (which is of course fine, just another one of his strings attached to me, his puppet). I also realized that my debit card had disappeared. Yikes.

We picked up the movie but passed out before we could watch it.

Time passes… hmm, drama at work (ppl showing up late, not doing their work and worst of all, telling me what to do!)

I am grocery shopping when I see some tabloids that caught my attention…

First off, Jessica Simpson has her legs in different positions in each picture which explains where her bootilicious ass went off to. The second, of the God-awful pastic surgery is obviously a doctored photo of the already bloated face of an otherwise actress fresh out of surgery, as the swelling goes down I am sure she will look great.

What upset me was that I even cared enough that I thought these things out. Yikes! Or maybe I am just on a crusade to right those who have been publicly wronged through libel.

I bought a new wine for the M.A.C. party we were going to as well.

I did my laundry and hung out at Coffee Bizaar and then headed home. This song came on and I thought to myself how exciting it would be to spend winter up in Cali.

I really love this song. I don’t think I had ever heard it until that drive, I quickly bookmarked it and took a photo (what a loser haha) and eventually bought it.

That night we played Pictionary with a bunch of M.A.C. people and their guest.

Everyone was awesome, I had a blast. I was the only one who tried my wine, well Seth took a sip. I really liked it. It is a $32 bottle of wine which is a pretty good price for a decent wine. I got it for half price, w00t! When I figure out what it was called, I will put it up here.

I had an absolute blast with these people. The night otherwise went downhill, sadly. I dropped Seth and Loren off and headed back home where I fell asleep with my laptop in hand trying to write in my journal.

While driving around town I heard an ol’ favorite of mine. Oddly enought it happened at 11:11, which is my time. I somehow always check the time at 11:11 AM/PM, never seems to fail that I know when it is 11:11.

Great song, especially one so to play at 11:11.

I had a great conversation with Michael Danbomb and Landon today. Landon called me at home tonight, what a great time that was. I really wish MIchael and I had been closer when I was in Columbia. We recently talked pretty openly about some things, too bad we waited so… Anyways, fun conversations, very real.

I got a raise today and it will be added to my pay for the past 30 days, how rock is that? So i get a raise for hours worked weeks ago. Awesome!

I need to write about my MySpace encounter, but later. I start school tomorrow (I think at 9:00 am!)

Gotta go, love you all

-justin

p.s. look at all this music!