It’s Just Justin

Now Time to Bitch

Ok, I gave you a somewhat muted post, now I just wanna get some shit out.

• Don’t tell me we are going to hang out and not call me back, much less hang out with me.
• Don’t tell me you don’t like something about me that was month, years ago and not present.  Why would I care now?  What does it matter?
• Don’t tell me you really like me and then blow me off, you obviously don’t really like me.
• Don’t tell me we should hang out and you miss being around me and then hang out with my roommate instead.
• Don’t act like I’m not in the same room as you.
• Don’t blame everything on your period.  A menstrual cycle is rough, sure, I’ll give you that, but it isn’t a month long and you can take a god-damned Mydol you know.
• Don’t tell me you find me attractive if you don’t.
• Don’t tell me to call you if you know you aren’t going to answer your phone.
• Don’t act like you want to date me and then go out with another guy.
• Don’t schedule me for only 15 hours a week and then complain about availability when there are people wanting hours and you just won’t give them to them.
• Don’t fucking wait for the light to turn yellow before driving through the intersection, you really slow down my day.
• Don’t ignore me.
• Don’t send me anymore credit card applications.  I have too many cards already.
• Don’t push me to drink alcohol.  It won’t make you more attractive.
• Don’t dance if you can’t.
• Don’t sing if you can’t, it isn’t even funny at this point.
• Don’t keep dating the same guy and then crying when he breaks up with you, again and again.
• Don’t judge me for the music I listen to.  If I cared what you thought, I’d ask.
• Don’t leave me annoying, long-winded voice messages.
• Don’t forget that we used to be best friends.
• Don’t forget that we used to be in love.
• Don’t think that this is referring to you.
• Don’t think this is about someone else, it isn’t.
• Don’t get drunk all the time.
• Don’t judge people so much, and no, you aren’t fat so stop acting like you are.
• Don’t be so dramatic, you aren’t that special and if you were, we’d have you admitted.
• Don’t fear love so fucking much, just let it happen.
• Don’t think you are better than me because you got a promotion.  That just means they sucked you in and you won’t ever make a solid living.
• Don’t forget that in five years I will be making triple what you make.
• Don’t let your thoughts invade mine, it gets me in a fit.
• Don’t throw basketballs at my car, it costs me a-fucking-lot of money to get that shit fixed.
• Don’t be such a whore, spreading your seed isn’t safe or wholesome.
• Don’t have such low self-esteem.
• Don’t think so highly of yourself, your ego is way outta control.
• Don’t act like you’re right when you aren’t, arguing isn’t fun, especially with you.
• Don’t punch through bathroom doors.
• Don’t drop out of my sublease, you bastard.
• Don’t stress me out so much, I get all weird and make posts like this.
• Don’t tell me you love me and then take it back the next day, that’s just trashy.
• Don’t be such a bitch to me
• Don’t manage a store if you can’t handle it.
• Don’t forget all the times I did something for you.
• Don’t forget my sacrifices.
• Don’t forget my mistakes, being here is one of them.

There, I feel a little better.

Tags: Bitch, David, Geoffrey, Jim, Kevin, Kristin, Landon, Matt, Patrick, Pissed, Starbucks, Vandalism, WTF?

Graduation

All my people are leaving me! Today Geoff, Jenny, Jim, Jake, Josh, Shannon, Megan, Matt, Eric, Annie, … They’re all graduated. Congratulations to you all.

Today I should have graduated, let’s hope next year will be my year. I won’t be convinced until I’m walking the stage.

It is hard to think about living in Columbia without these people, and the many other unnamed in this post. You were all so very special to me and have had an incredible impact on who I am today.

I can look back to my freshman year, virgin, freshly out and learning how to make friends on my own. Immediately Geoff was in my life, and it was truly love at first sight. But our love was to be put on hold until we were ready to be with each other. We eventually made our relationship official and a world of firsts began.

We all know how it ended, it wasn’t pretty. But like a phoenix rising from the ashes, our friendship still rings true. That is true love, true friendship.

I will have lost the four most important people in my life this year, lost to Washington DC and St. Louis. Jenny and Geoff are both heading to St. Louis to continue their education. I’m so proud of them and their devotion to their life’s work. Landon and Jim are in and off to Washington DC. Landon headed there last semester but went through his second graduation this week gaining another degree from Mizzou. Saying goodbye to him just an hour ago was more emotional that I had expected.

It will take great effort on my part not to feel alone now, now that the absolute closest people in my life have left this part of their journey through life with me still trailing behind.  As I watch the last Lord of the Rings movie on TBS, I am reminded of A) how dorky I am, B) How much Geoff and I loved to watch this movie together, and C) how special true friends are.

On a less emotional note, where were the fashion police when this woman put on her fingernail polish?  Yikes.

This semester ended with great grades, a confusing (and yet promising) relationship(sorta), the departing of friends, the rekindling of old friendships (Dave, lunch was so much fun) and the start of a new(ish) life, and even more independence.

Tags: Annie, Dave, Debbie Downer, Eric, Geoff, Graduation, Jake, Jenny, Jim, Josh, Landon, Matt, Megan, Mizzou, Shannon