I Hate Titles

Sometimes I just hate making up titles for my journal. I do not know why I think it so important to have a title, most of the time they are shitty anyways.

So I had a good time last night. I was not so sure that I wanted to go out since I had been going out so much already and tonight I was invited to a get-together, but I am glad I went. I was able to see some people I had not really hung out with and made some new friends. We went to Libby’s house and I hung out with a great girl named Laura. She is super cute and so nice. I love her hair!

I am so tired though today. I slept over there because I could not drive home… uncomfortable futon/crate downstairs. Libby gave me her bed when she left for work. I mean, I did help her get it home yesterday; she could at least let me take a nap in it hehe.

I am excited about going home Monday. I have a lot of stuff to get done here before I go but it should be accomplishable. I think I am going to try to bring a good majority of my stuff home here, at least the extra stuff. I just do not have the room for it. Most likely, I will at least send home all of my CD’s since I really have no need for them here.

I feel so stupid but I just love the new Old Navy commercials. They are just so cute! Speaking of cute, hope you are having a good time in Topeka!

Crap… just realized I am supposed to exchange gifts today with Landon and Rachel. I really wish that things could be simpler with Landon. I would love to believe we could be friends but I know he wants more and I think that causes problems. I know it causes problems.

I totally want to get Napoleon Dynamite on DVD. It looked hilarious, wanted to see it in the theater but it is just so expensive to go see a movie in the theater. I mean, you pay like 6/8 bucks per person for tickets and then if you get a drink at 2-4 dollars and if you get popcorn another 4. So for me to go on a movie date, it could cost me as much as like 32 clams! I could instead bring a guy out to a nice dinner… get dressed up and just have a fun night at some place like Sophia’s or the like.

I am so tired right now though, the past week has been busy, the past month has been busy though. Between the breakup, papers, finals, elections and trying to build a social life… I am getting worn out. But you know, I guess it is ok because once I get to Tulsa, I will heading to bed at like 9:30 and when I get to Houston, similar. Until around New Years, I won’t have Joseph to make Houston fun so I have a good week or so to totally recoup.

I am getting my hair trimmed tomorrow. It feels weirdly awesome to have a regular person to get my hair cut by. I really like Candice because not only does she do a good job with my hair, she also makes me feel good by talking to me. I think I need to start going back to my psychologist because I know I am in so many pieces right now. I need some sort of guidance to get my stuff back together. I would love to do it with Geoff but I think that it won’t really work that way.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Geoffrey and I would love for us to be able to help each other out, but I think that before we can help each other out and be each other’s shoulder to cry on, we need to independently make ourselves strong enough to be leaned against. I know that if geoff were to cry to me right now, I would be emotionally moved into a situation where all I could think was how I wish I could make him feel better… I would want to do almost anything just to make him smile… and if I could be so lucky, do the “cat-yarn-thing” that makes me soooo happy! But if that happened… I would become too emotionally attached. I am already a little too attached considering we are not dating anymore, but I feel it just takes time to let things cool down.

Well I am going to be home alone tonight and that has me a little bit sad. Jenny watched the movie Geoff bought me, Harry Potter: And the Prisoner of Azkaban. I am so glad he got me that movie, it is so wonderful. I kind of want to have a theme party so I can dress up like Harry. I wanted to do it for the past two Halloweens but the first had me sick before I could make it and the second I worked.

I think I will try to find someone to see Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events. I know I JUST wrote that it cost so much to see a movie and all but I just got my book refund money and since I was not really expecting to have it, maybe I can go see a movie with it and not be upset at the price.

I really want to see Phantom of the Opera and Ocean’s Twelve. Those movies Geoff and I are supposed to see but I have a feeling he will see them on his own. That is totally ok with me. I really love the idea of us seeing at least Phantom together but you know as well as I do that it is too crazy right now to know how it will work out and all.

Well I am going to head out, take a cat nap and then get ready for my drive home on Monday. I can’t wait to see my family!!!
Well some of them at least haha.

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