Old Files

I was going through my computer, finding old files and reading them… found this one from Geoff

Hey Justin
I just wanted to say you mean the world to me. You really keep me going sometimes, and I know today hasnt been my best day yet. Many times I dont tell you how much you mean to me, but I hope you always know that you mean a bunch to me. As for Closer by Josh Groban…..You Raise Me Up. I often play that when Im writing in my xanga because it makes me think of you and how happy you make me.

-g-


When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Life is so difficult. We are each battling and fighting different struggles, which makes it hard to be there for each other, but I know we both are trying and both want to be there for the other. Justin… I dont want to scare you, but I feel that you complete me. When we hugged tonight in the laundry room (ha ha.. kinda dorky I know), its just like we were one…. Ya know? I dont know. I dont like being dorky… and I have a hard time expressing emotion… which is why I use Spanish or do random stuff… just know that I care a bunch for you. J Mucho amor.

G


Mi amigo para vida.
I know I will most likely repeat myself, but I want you to know that I care for you a lot. Together, we can get through anything. Together, we make life fun. Together, we are one. Take care of yourself, but know that I will be taking care of you also.
Mucho amor,
-g-

Hard to believe he used to feel like that for me. This is the Geoff I fell in love with. What happened to us? I just will never understand how we went from that to where we are now. Where are we even? I honestly don’t believe that he has a single bone in his body that honestly cares for me without any red tape. My care for him has no red tape. Wish we could turn back time.

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