So Seth’s party was a bust. He would’nt really even make eye contact with me, much less talk. He was spending all of his time with Derek, fixing him up for the party. When I showed up, the only thing he really said to me was asking if I could work the bar…
I hung around there for about an hour, with him not talking to me. I talked with Meghan and Alexandriacat about it and they advised me to just leave if he was treating me like that, and has been for a while. I took their advice and headed to Mike’s to talk.
We played Star Wars and had a great time. Kevin was I think in the city at a movie.
I left Mikes around 1:30 and went back to Seth’s to try it around again… He was dancing with Derek, looked me in the eyes and continued dancing. Hurt, sad and disappointed, I left, again.
This morning I went to see Seth at his house around 7:30. I walked into his room where he was cuddling with Derek, two other guys were in the bed with him. Jumping to conclusions would not be a good thing, but the thoughts in my head for the past few weeks about Derek and Seth seem to be realizing themselves. I took pictures… I did not know what to do, so I took a picture on my camera phone. Argh!
I have an uncanny ability to figure these things out, as and even before they occur. From the start Derek seemed to make it clear to me that he did not like me… Well, point has be made.
I have tried calling Seth a few times but he won’t answer, albiet still early in the morning.
I felt so sick to my stomach leaving his house… What does one do in my situation? William John, send me a message!