So like all the great things in my life, another has left. Geoff does not want to date me anymore. He told me he was no longer in love with me… I could actually feel my heart break. Have you ever had that feeling? Your eyes begin to hurt and your mind races to make a new ending to the previous sentence… It can’t be real, this can’t be happening.
But it did.
And now I am single again, for the first time in eight months. I still love Geoff, I am still in love with Geoff, but I can’t be his backup. I cannot share him as he has asked for this x-mas break. We used to ponder over those couples who lived in an open relationship, how could they possibly function? Certainly they only wanted a guarenteed bed partner.
He also said that he felt that all the passion was gone from our sex life… This might be true. I felt it leave about a month ago, he stopped kissing me and telling me he loved me while we were “making love”. I felt like a peice of meat.
I am so upset about all of this but what am I to do? I just don’t know.