Let’s get a solid back story here before I continue with the current situation.
I moved back to Columbia and brainstormed with Jim this great idea that we could move in together in this three bedroom apartment off campus with his boyfriend David. I didn’t really know David but he seemed like a nice enough guy, plus he was from Texas so I liked him that much more
Things worked out just fine for a good while. I mean, I had to do most if not all of the cleaning and every once in a while David would drink too much and be a little annoying. Nothing really bothered me too much except that I never got to hang out with Jim.
When I first moved in, I was super busy with work, I had about 40 hours a week over at Starbucks on top of class work. When my eyes got fucked up, again, I had to cut my hours to around 12-20 per week and then further when I got sick from the other stuff.
At one point I was pretty damn sick, I even had to take a cab to the emergency room. This was followed by three surgeries and some annoying preparatory and recovery procedures. Throughout all of this I never asked for a ride or anything special, except one time I did ask Jim if he could bring me to the hospital for my surgery, unfortunately he had class and couldn’t, that’s fine, I understood completely and never asked again.
Right before David moved out to finish his graduate requirements in Houston, he had this big drunken fit. He called me an asshole and many other mean and untrue things. It seemed then that he thought I didn’t want him to be with Jim and that I wanted to be with Jim.
Oh yeah, Jim and I dated years ago, for a few months. It never progressed to anything as serious as Jim’s last two relationships and we had both moved on completely, absolutely completely.
Jim and David moved out completely last… Saturday. Jim had asked if I could get the cable box to Mediacom that Friday or Thursday if he didn’t make it in time. I let him know that I would try but my last two days, Monday and Tuesday, in Columbia were already packed with work during Mediacom’s hours of operation and errands I had to run to get my shit together with my new apartment, work and planning for the rest of the summer. On Tuesday I literally had every hours planned out with appointments, ask Kevin, Geoff, Curtis, Chadd, my family…
Furthermore, I had told Jim that he could take it back whenever he wanted as all of my television watching was now done with my AppleTV. I only watched regular television in my bedroom or otherwise basic cable broadcast, I didn’t use the cable box function, at all.
Tuesday night I got out of work at 12:30am (which is actually Wednesday morning of course) and Geoff was kind enough to pick me up at Columbia Autobody about 10 miles north of town around 1:00am and bring me home. I finished laundry, packed my stuff up and at 4:30 a bus picked me up to bring me to the Saint Louis Airport.
On Monday or perhaps early Tuesday, I told Jim that I might not be able to make it to Mediacom until I got back into town, which would be a Sunday, the 17th, Mediacom opens the next day, Monday. I won’t have my car until the afternoon on Monday and I work in the afternoon Monday so who knows when I will actually be able to pick up my car, probably Tuesday.
David sent me a text message tonight because he was mad that I didn’t make it to Mediacom.
I was immediately floored. No one likes to get messages like that, especially when you feel that you are totally innocent of any wrongdoing. Jim understood that I would try, but just as he had run out of time, I did not have the time. I was stressed out about getting just my stuff done. With a co-worker’s baby on the way, I had been given extra shifts, working as much as 14 hours a day on top of moving to my new place, planning and organizing trips to Austin, Houston, Indianapolis, Chicago, San Francisco and Santa Rosa, New York, Washington DC, Nashville and South Carolina. Plus trying to figure out how I would pay for these trips and still afford to finish off my apartment.
Despite what some people think, I’m not rich and I don’t get everything I want from my parents. If I can’t afford something right away, I save up my paychecks and wait until I can. I’m very good at saving the money before products come out so I can get them as they arrive, such as the AppleTV and Airport Extreme and my iPods and such.
I called Jim to apologize if I had upset him and let him know that I would get it returned as soon as I could. I also told him that David had sent me that really mean, unwarranted text message. The phone service out here in the hill country isn’t so great and we got cut off twice, through kind words. He apologized for David which isn’t something he should have done or had to do. Jim had written me earlier saying if I could just get it done when I get back, OK.
Then I got another message from David.
It just never ends. I’m not sure what to do. Micheal told me to just ignore David and not respond to him, save the friendship I have with Jim and forget that David and I had ever had this one sided conversation.
I have never responded to David’s accusations, his quips and whips. I have never voiced my opinions of David to Jim and have never actively done anything to David. He has used my computer to log into his email on Gmail. He has printed from my printer or at least taken ALL of the paper out of my printer four times, the last time being their last day in Columbia. Nothing like pulling an all-nighter to find your printer out of paper right before you have to run to class and turn in your report.
This summer I have been really enjoying work. I have been hanging out with great old friends and making new ones. I have made more new friends this semester than I ever expected; Ryan, Beau, Scott, Chadd, Justin, Nick, Carrie, John, Justin, Justin, Michelle, Jessica2, Scott…
I’m going to be in Washington DC for some eleven days visiting Landon and experiencing the Fourth of July at our Capital. I really hope to hang out with Jim while I’m there and to spend some time exploring the city with Geoff when he arrives later in the week. I am going to have a blast hanging out with Landon and his friends and expect to share those experiences with Jim. We have been great friends through so much for so long. We have helped each other through heartbreak, through depression and through some soul searching. We have shared so many wonderful experiences and have grown up together into completely different people than the ones we were when we first met in 2003.
I love you Jim.I don’t think I’m a loser. I think I’m a really nice guy with a winner personality and lots of wonderful friends like many of you reading my blog right now. I don’t think I would have you as friends if I were a “fucking prick” a “loser” an “asshole”.
Now that that is out of the way, I’m going to get some sleep. I have a busy day ahead of myself.